It's been a Month.


Baby, we hit a Month ler. Sorry that I'm not in the happy mood. But I'll still meet up with you later okay? Love ya.

& To Someone who's one of the most important person in my life, really sorry if I upsetted you. I just wanna clear the misunderstanding. Friends, I don't wanna explain anything. I wanna solve it myself as I don't want things to become bigger & worsen. Sorry & thanks for everyone's concern. Love you all (: .


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To drown in my tears


I never wanted to update. But suddenlly, I'm getting alot of problems. I feel vexed, stress & always wanting to cry. The least I want is a quarrell from a best friend. My best sister. I don't wanna elaborate. & This bloody school of mine, suddenlly come tell me switch places? From Dhoby to Bukit Merah. It takes even further for us to get to school lah. Fuck you man. Then my family, how to make them happy if I'm like this? My relationship, we're hitting a month this Thursday. But I don't feel happy at all. Baby, I really don't wish to hurt you. Whatever I say, however I explain, you'll never understand. You keep asking & asking & gets me damn fed up & pissed. I sometimes just wanna off my phone. I don't know how to work this relationship anymore. & Yeah, I guess I'm giving up. I don't wanna fall back into depression but I feel so damn hurt. & The worst thing is, I don't know why. Now, I really wished I would die. I do things without knowing that I'm doing it. I say things that would hurt people. Hurt people who love me, people who care.

I can't turn to anyone now. I wanna turn to Jo. But we're kinda having abit of problems. Who else can I turn to? Turn to boyf, he only ask me relax relax & it won't help. I can't turn to my parents or brother. Now only, I'm telling Kenny everything. If he really can't help, I really don't know who else to turn to already. Everything's fucking me up. I became so weak, so fragile. & Really, I don't know why, life's fucking me up.

Goodbye.

Few hours to my Birthday!


Like the title said, few hours to my Birthday! Hahaha, well, I'm throwing a party. Hopefully everyone will enjoy & there'll be no troubles. (: . Oh well, we'll see after tomorrow!

Alright, Jo came my house at like 9:30AM. Baby suddenlly message me say he & his friend coming my place find us. So damn rush laa. Then bathed, make up & met them. They left at 11:30AM. Me & Jo left house after 1PM to go YioChuKang MRT. Waited for the person Jo ordered clothes from. She got a Birthday Present for me. Printed out shirt, "I ♥ CASSY" . I'll be wearing it tomorrow! Love you sister! Then Baby met us at 2:30PM. We wanted to go AMK Hub. But lazy, so we went back to CCK. Slacked awhile, then around 5PM+ we went to Lot1 to buy some stuffs. Baby went off at 6:30PM, me & Jo bought drinks for tomorrow & sushi for my dinner! Headed home, ate, washed up & now TV! Okay Ima end here, update on my Birthday tomorrow! See all of you who are coming okay! Love love Baby & everyone! <3

I just wanna run away


I don't know whats been going on with me. I'm feeling so vexed that it gets so hard to breathe. Family, school, life. I hate coming home, seeing people quarrelling, argueing & fighting. I hate coming home, seeing someone giving a black face & feeling stress too. I hate coming home to emptiness. I don't deserve to be my parent's daughter. I've disappointted them too much that I don't even dare to face them anymore. I quitted school many times, I told my dad this time I wanna study, then get good grades, then go overseas to complete my studies. In the end what the fuck did I do? I skipped school for 3 weeks already. I cry every night in my sleep. Telling you guys in my heart I'm really sorry. See I don't even fucking dare face my parents & tell them straight in the face. I don't wanna upset them. Yeah you guys will tell me if I don't wanna upset them then go to school, be a good girl & study my ass off. BUT I CAN'T FUCKING DO THAT. Cos it'll be lying to them & myself. I wish I was those smart-pretty-rich ass type of girl. But I ain't & life isn't that easy. Sigh, I'm afraid of going back to depression again. I feel like I'm going back in it. I don't want it. I feel tortured, pain & so much sadness that I don't even know why I was sad for.

Those who asked if I was alright, I told you I was. In fact, I'm not. I'm just putting up a strong front cos I didn't want you all to worry. You guys thought it was my relationship that gets me into this state. I assure you, it's not. My relationship with Baby is fine. It's just me. & I can never be a good girlfriend to him too. I don't wish to hurt him, I really don't want it to happen.

Sigh, I feel like crying my heart out again. Birthday's coming. Huh, wow.

I've got alot on my mind.



FUUUUUUUCK
STRESS
IRRITATED
SCREWED
ANGER
MOODLESS



Sigh, goodbye.

Fucking bored.
QUIZ TIME!

TEN ARE YOURS.
Are you single?
- No
Are you happy?
- Kinda
Are you bored?
- Yups.
Are you fair?
- I selfish. LOL
Are you italian?
- Nooooooo = =
Are you intelligent?
- I have no brains
Are you nice?
- Ask people, not me.
Are you irish?
- Nooooooo
Are you asian?
- Yeah


FACTS.
Full name
- Cassy
Nicknames
- I don't know eh.
Birthplace
- Singapore
Hair Color
- Copper Brown
Natural hair style
- Straight, a little wave.
Birthday
- 18 April 1992
Mood
- Fine.
Favorite Colors
- Exclude those I don't like.
One place you would like to visit
- Canada.


TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
Have you ever been in love?
- Yups.
Do you believe love in first sight?
- Not really.
Do you currently have a crush?
- Er, no.
Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
- Yeah.
Have you ever been hurt emotionally?
- Hell yes.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
- HELL HELL YES.
Have you ever liked anyone but is afraid of telling them?
- Yeah.
Are you afraid of commitment?
- Yup, very.
Who was the last person you hug?
- My hubby!
Love or lust?
- Love.
Hard liquor or beer?
- Hard liquor.
Cats or dogs?
- Dogs
A few best friends or any regular friends?
- Yup, Jo!
Creamy or crunchy?
- Crunchy.
Pen or pencil?
- Pen
Wild night or romantic night?
- Wild night
Money or happiness?
- Both :x
Night or day?
- Night
IM or phone?
- Phone.


TEN HAVE YOU EVER.
Been caught sneeking out?
- Yup.
Seen a polar bear?
- At the Zoo ;o
Done something you regret?
- Yeah.
Bungee jump?
- No way.
Eaten food that fell onto the floor?
- I guess.
Finished an entire jaw breaker?
- Yeah.
Been caught naked?
- No = =
Wanted an e bf/gf back?
- I did.
Cried because you lost a pet?
- Yeah.
Wanted to disappear?
- Long time ago.


TEN PREFERRENCES IN PARTNER.
Smiles or eyes?
- Both <3
Light or dark hair?
- Middle.
Huggs or kisses?
- Both <3
Shorter or taller?
- Taller .
Intelligence or attraction?
- Middle.
Topman or Zara?
- Topman
Funny or serious?
- Different things at different times.
Older or younger?
- Older
Outgoing or quiet?
- Outgoing.
Sweet or bad?
- Sweet


AND BAD TEN HAVE YOU.
Ever performed infront of a large crowd?
- No
Ever talked on the phone for more than 1hour?
- Yeah
Ever tried walking on your hands?
- No = =
Ever been to a rock concert?
- Nooooo
Ever been on a cheerleading team?
- Nooooo
Ever been on a dance team?
- Nooooo
Ever been on a sports team?
- Yeah.
Ever been in a drama play/production?
- Yeah
Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Exscalade, Hummer or Bently?
- Nope, Jaguar only :D
Ever been in a rap video?
- Zzz, no.
Last phone call you made?
- Hubby
Last person you hugged?
- Hubby
Last person you hang out with?
- Hubby, Jo & MK
Last time you worked?
- 2years ago
Last person you talked to?
- Mum
Last person you IM'd to?
- Sora
Last person you texted to?
- Hubby
Last person you went to the movie with?
- Hubby, Jo & MK
Last persons/things you missed?
- Hubby!
Last website visited?
- Blog = =

Nothing can describe how much love,
I gave for you.


A pretty short post, as I needa sleep. If not Baby sure kp me. =/ . Eh, didn't go school again, whole week ler. Jo came over in morning, Baby came over find us in afternoon. He went to find his friends at 4pm++, so Jo & I watched Youtube! Found many many interesting videos, I'm so gonna upload them on the next post! Sad one, happy one, weird one. ._____. . Okay, Baby finding me later in the morning. He's gonna hug me to sleep! Who ask him tio probation, cannot stay my place. My Dad & girlf overseas sial! I incharge of house :D . Only trouble is my Maid & Grandma can't get along. Many complains since Wednesday already. Pek chek. Hmm, alrights off to bed, videos tomorrow! Loveeeeeeeees!

Nothing else matters,
When you're with me.

Sup all! Okay, yesterday Jo came my place morning as we never go school. Afternoon, I bathed & got ready, cabbed down to Yishun find Baby. Walan, bluff me say cut botak. In the end also never cut lah. Bluff me some more, good lah Baby. = = . Walked around in North Point, decided to go eat, then it started raining. & Ah, he still smoke so much. By my birthday better cut down to 3 ah.. Walked in blocks, went to pet stores & played with some puppies. I find that the dogs there abit no space luh. I saw one standard Poodle in a small cage. Wtfuck? Then went back North Point, walked around, bus-ed down to MYCS. Baby need find his P.O . I wait outside till can die. Saw an old friend. :D . Chatted with her till Baby came out, then bus-ed home. He send me home again. I feel bad luh, he stay so far still want send. = = . At home, dinner & chatted with Baby till sleep.

Jo woke me up for school today, I tricked her, telling her I didn't wanna go school. Then can see she abit pek chek so just told her that I was joking. HAHA sis! =x . After getting ready, Jo said she didn't feel like going. So I was okay with it & we went Jurong Point to catch a movie. Went KFC to eat our so-called branch, then headed to movie. Watched 12 Rounds, I so recommend the show lah, 4/5 ! :D . Must watch okay! After movie, train-ed home, washed up & went to Jo's house. Watched a dvd & went back home for dinner. Very boring nowadays, I miss Baby. Friday then can see him. He's coming over my place! <3 . Alright I think I'd better reply his messages. Nights all (:

I feel like saying,

I miss baby..

Was too lazy to update, but shall update a little bit! Saturday, went out to CityHall with Jo, MK, Baby & baby's friends. But only the four of us went for lunch at Sakae Sushi. I tell you ah, I SAW SECKIE & CHANT! I jitao, "JOJOJOJOJO! IT'S SECK!" . Rofl, like idiot right. Then stack the plates till me & Jo cannot see each other's face. Went Marina Square to see if there's any movie to catch. But all timings full for Fast & Furious 4. So mum helped me check for Lido's timings. There were seats! Mum booked for us online & we headed over. Slacked awhile, movie & dinner after that. I got really pissed with 4 fucking morons who hogged the table like nobody's business. I mean, if they were eating or at least one of them was eating, I nothing to say. Cb, over there playing cards. Some more already see us finding table still can laugh. Laugh fuck lah. Baby & MK didn't want me & Jo to do anything. So we don't give a fuck, waste time anyway. Then eat, & went home already.

Didn't do anything on Sunday.

Today, skipped school as I was not well. Jo came to my place at 8:10am to make up. I talked to her & she went off to school. Went to bathe & met Baby outside Condo then went Lot1 to eat. He eat only lah, I no appetite. Kope abit here & there only. =x . Then went back to my place, went inside room & dotdotdot. (Not what you're thinking) . Then he hug me sleep abit, then cabbed down to Dhoby to fetch Jo from school. She was eating at LJS. Then bus-ed back & bought food for Grandma. See I so nice right.. Three of us train-ed to Clementi, went Mum's house to feed Meow & train-ed to Tiong Baru Plaza. Walked around, met up with my Mum & had dinner at this steamboat place. Forgot the name, nb, eat halfway, black out sia. LOL. Me & Jo shouted, "WOAHHHHHH! ROMANTIC!" . Really abit hard to eat =x . After dinner, Mum went off first, me & Jo pei Baby to Outram, Baby hug & kiss me then go off ler. Jo & I train back to Cck & now, blogging! Waiting Baby's call. Count money siaaaaaaa. Hahahaha! Okay, post a "little" already. Many loves <3

Jo woke me up at like 6:59am! She called me telling me she was going to school. LOL. I wasn't going though, didn't have the mood for anything =/ . Okay, called Baby at 10am, woke him up & he came over to my place. Met him at Cck mrt, went 302 help grandma buy lunch. Used my lappy awhile & decided to cab over to Mum's place. Mum saw him already! Hahahaha! Went for lunch & crapped. Mum told me to treat Baby nicer, she said he's a nice guy! Haha, she likes him, *YAYYYYYY* . Then slacked at Mum's place awhile, me & Baby decided to go to the new shopping mall at Clementi. It's super small I swear. Finally can hold Baby's hand & get his hug without Mum around. =x . Got bored & decided to go back Cck. Walked around at Lot1 & supposingly meeting Jo. But she said she has to buy clothes so nevermind. Baby walked me to my Condo, my block & before parting, he asked, "You don't want hug ah? *Grins*" Omfg I love it when he grins! He looks super hot! xD . Then I went over & recieved a big, warm, long hug. Then Baby kissed my forehead few times, then parted. I love him alot laa! (: . Alright, as usual, on phone with him now. Gonna sleep pretty soon. Nights <3


Quiz!

Who was your last text from?
Baby!

Where was your default picture taken?
Neoprint

Your relationship status?
Belonging only to James.

Have you ever lost a close friend?
Guess so.

What is your current mood?
Normal.

How many siblings do you have?
One younger brother.

What’s your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Zen.

Where do you wish you were right now?
Canada.

Have a crazy side?
YUP! :D

Ever had a near death experience?
Few years back.

Something you do a lot?
Spend time with Baby & Sis!

Angry at anyone?
Nope.

What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
I already have him.

When was the last time you cried?
Not sure.

Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yeah.

What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Baby's smile.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
On phone with boyf now.

What is your favorite song?
Thinking of you - Katy Perry

What are you doing right now?
Blogging.

Who do you trust right now?
People I love.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Don't know.

Have you kissed someone in the past week?
No, only him kissing me =x

Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Jo!

Describe your life in one word?
Surprises.

Who are you thinking of right now?
Baby.

What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.

What are you listening to?
None.

Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Baby!

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
No one.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
I love being myself in character.

What is your natural hair color?
Black.

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Baby.

Who was the last person to make you sad?
No one.

What do you hear?
Baby's voice.

Is your hair curly or straight?
Normal.

Has anyone ever called you “scrumptious” before?
No.

Do you have a best friend?
Yeap!

Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Just did.

Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
:D !

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yeah =x

Are you happy with life right now?
I'm living right now, so..

Are you currently jealous?
No.

What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Black bands.

What were you doing on Friday night?
It's friday morning, 1:06am.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah, many times.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Yeah.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now?
Not really.

What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Face.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
1:30am, on phone with Baby. (:

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yeah.

Loveeeeeee baby!

Once again, didn't go to school. HAHAHAHA! Met Jo at my place around 9am or so. Called Baby told him to wake up cos we want to meet early. Okay laa, very good laa you, tired still wake up. :D . Then bus-ed down to PS & waited for him there. Met up & he lost this "bet" we made. So I was suppose to take a super hot guy's number. But I didn't take any in the end. Cos only love Baby what :D . Then went LAN, wanted to Papu, but didn't do the quest. So went to L4D instead. Was feeling super unwell today ): . Kept feeling like vomitting & Baby & Sis kept saying I pregnant. Evil righttttt! Then around 3plus we went to eat at Pizza Hut. I no appetite laa = = . Keep lying on Baby's shoulder, too tired already. Then I took snap shots of him. He smiled for me! HAHA! Then walked around, slacked & went back at 7pm. Oh, I got emo today. Sorry for Jo & Baby to tolerate me. Thinking too much. Baby said things that made me think less. He said, "I love you very much lah!" . Heh then I was okay ler. I love you alot too.

Meeting Baby tomorrow & maybe Jo for a lunch date with my MUM! Yeah, my mum! She knows already! Haha. Hopefully, everything will turn out fine. Okay laa, I on phone with Baby now. Blog tomorrow!



I love you (: