Afternoon


I've decided to give up on you.
It doesn't mean I no longer feel for you.
I'm just tired of this one-sided shit.
Hopefully, I'll be happier.
I know I will be, if I try.
Falling for you wasn't a mistake.
Making myself hurt was.
Nothing's your fault. So I'm not blaming you.
Love doesn't change a person.
Is what the person thinks, that made themself different.
So I'll try to forget everything that happened.
I'll take it as nothing happened.
& We'll remain as friends now & through.


Hehs, boring, AFK-ing in Maple now.
At mum's house, going dinner soon.
I cut my fringe & painted my nails! =x
Alrights logging off now.
Last thing,



HAPPY BDAY TO MY DEAR CLASSMATE, GLEN! :D

Morning


So with the rain heavily pouring.
The wind sadly blowing, making a shiver down my spine.
There's me, typing almost everything that I'm feeling.
If you'd even know how I feel, then maybe things'll be better.
I know having two girls liking the same person, isn't easy.
Things would either go right, or wrong.
& now I don't know how far has it gone.
It takes so little to say "I love you" .
Yet so much to express what it really means.
I've never told you how I feel bout you, but you knew.
& I know how you want the situation to be.
I whole-heartedly respect whatever decision you make.
But I ask myself, is it worth it ?
Is it worth making myself wait & feel miserable ?
Is it worth trying to search an answer I'd never find ?
Yea, I guess it is worth, at least for now.
But I'm tired. Tired of everything.
Tired of crying, tired of keeping my distance.
Tired of trying. & Even tired of falling in love.
Yet I keep going. For the sake of the people around me.
Asking me to be strong, to move on.
& I couldn't thank them enough for being there.
It's been almost a month now.
& I wanna find a day, to talk to you.
Cos I guess it's really time for me to face the fact.
The fact that I love you, & the fact that it ain't gonna work.
Anyways, friends last longer right ? (:


Qii, I don't hate you.
It's no wrong liking someone right?
But you & Sis the prob, I'll not interfere much.
Cheer up okays.


Yays, mummy's back to SG! It's like freaking early now.
& the rain is like ~!@#$%^&*() .
Super cold luhs. But I can't sleep though. Ish.
Think I'm gonna make smth to eat.
Going school later! Pon ytd liaos.
Daddy was kp-ing me whole night.
But wasn't as bad as I expected =x .
Hungry siol! Gonna ransack my kitchen!
LOVES!


& Thanks,
Jo Sis
Sebas GF
x6 & dumb
For being there for me. (:





For love, all rules are worth breaking.
For you, it's worth everything.

Mid-Night


Hellos! Quite some time didn't update alr.
I update now bout last Friday. ^^


Went out with Jo, Mao, Marcus, HB, SJ, YS, Ervin, Jordon & Bert.
Met Jo around 4plus in the afternoon.
We got ready, took our stuffs & went Lot1 bought some sweets.
I bought a big packet of gummies which I owed Mao.
Then Jo bought a huge lollipop for SJ.
Trained down to Tanah Merah.
It was a superrrrrrr long ride. Lucky we got our ear-piece on.
We were the first to reach & waited for the guys.
Saw Mao first & he made us go down & up the escalator! F5
Then met Marcus, Bert & YS. Awhile later we met up with HB, SJ, Jor & Ervin.
We took the bus down to Parkway & ate PastaMania for dinner!
I think we were the most noisiest batch =x .
We then bus-ed down to CF. Long time since I stepped in there.
As usual, the boys Dota, me & Jo mapled.
Then Shihan & Gib came in from behind.
Was so nice seeing them again. But they left shortly after.
After like 2hours or so, we walked to HB's house.
& I swear his house was super big!
SJ ate his lollipop & we watch TV, drink & play cards.
Teached them how to play pair10.
When SJ won, he got to chose who has to drink.
He chose me! EVIL RIGHTS?! Feel like boxing him! =x
Then I won, I chose Jor. & he was super happy F3.
So just slack & FEW PEOPLE GOT DRUNK!
Jor, Marcus, HB & Jo. I didn't wna drink too much.
Okay I'll tell you what they'd do when they're drunk.
Marcus like scratched our legs! LOL, he kicked mine too D:
Jor was kinda hyper, but toh after awhile.
HB also kinda high, but was able to control.
Jo was running up & down, outside the house, laughing & laughing LOL.
Around 5am plus, Jo was sleeping alr.
All the boys were upstairs.
Mao & Marcus came down talk to me like 1min, then go up again.
Then Mao & YS came down, Mao kept calling my name till he was down. F3
& he claims to come down pei me, okok, I believe. =x
Then slacked awhile they went up again.
Jo went to sofa & slept, I just watched TV.
Went up shortly after to ask what time they going.
Not knowing I slept abit too. Woke up when it was time to go.
Then we woked Jo up. Was kinda hard but successful =x .
Went to take cab, & off to home. Slept till 7pm & got scolded xD.
I'll continue tomorrow on what happened after 7pm. ;D
Mean while, here are the pictures for Friday. (:




Jo with Giant Lolli!



The guys, when walking to HB house. (:



SJ with Giant Lolli! ;DD



Jor when he's drunk =x



Ervin, toh alr! =x



Marcus, abit better alr =x



Jo, drunk =x



Mao & Bert playing Dota xD



SJ & YS playing PS3

Night


Heys, here to blog bout couple of things.
Saturday, woke up like 3plus.
Then bathed, got ready by 6plus.
Took bus with Jo & Esther.
Went SHA VILLA to eat! ;D
Josh cooked for us, it was sooooooooo delicious!
Me & Jo kinda disturbed Esther with one guy.
She said his actions were cute.
& took we got a picture with Josh! ;D
Esther also got a silly picture with the Chef's hat. =x
After dinner, went to mummy's house & continue to watch drama!
Then bed time for me at 6am. Tired ahhhhhhhh. xD.
Alright, uploading some pictures now.
Also including the one Jo wrote in class!
Evohub's "family tree" .
<3





Esther =x



Evohub's "family tree" !





Even if I love you this much,
Am I still nothing in your eyes ?

Mid-Night


Just logged of Maple, was watching Vampire Knight again.
I just love that series. Haas.
Skipped school ytd. Was too tired.
& I didn't have the mood to study.
Actually, I'm not in the mood to do anything now.
I'm vexed, feeling down & sick.
Anyway, I'm still going school tomorrow.
I'm trying my best not to show a sad face.
But a happy one when I'm with my friends.


Oh, Good luck to Jo on her N'lvl papers!
2nd Sept - Happy Birthday MK! (:
Today - Happy Birthday SJ! (:



If love ever needs a reason,
Then I'll never stop loving you till I find one.

People tell me that I'm brave, strong, loud.
But to be frank, I'm not.



I'm afraid of trying to start a conversation with you.
I'm afraid of you not wanting to talk to me.
I'm afraid of picking up the phone to call or text you.
I'm afraid things won't go as I wanted.
I'm afraid you would hate me.
I'm afraid you wouldn't feel the same.
I'm afraid of trying to know you better.
I'm afraid of lying to you.
I'm afraid of telling you how much you mean to me.
I'm afraid of rejecttion.
I'm afraid of letting you know the truth.
I'm afraid of telling you, I love you.



I have my fears, I ranted out my feelings.
I'm feeling so sad & hurt.
I'm crying like never before.
Still, how could I ever tell you ?
How could I let you know ?
This much, just this much, I really love you.