Nb cc'b update liao then forgot save go change thing.
In the end tio del. Lazy re-write lah knn.
Free & got mood then post. Nbs _|_

It's a super moody day for me.
I found out something but don't wish to elaborate.
I don't know what's the feeling I'm feeling now.
Sad ? Angry ? Hurt ?
Well I talked to WJ just now.
& In the end I told him, "I feel like laughing :D"
But obviously, it was a lie.
I've only been living in a world where there's never only myself.
Duh I have friends, family. But I've always think about them first.
I've never think alot for myself, how things would turn out.
Call me stupid, call me crazy. But I can say, I'm not happy, really.
I've been trying to act like I'm happy. That one need not be in a R/S.
Well I'm single for nearly 8months now. & I can say, I'm happier.
But not till that extend yet. I feel there's something missing.
Something that lacks a place in my heart, something I want.
I don't know who or what, but it's just a feeling.
I'm getting pass everyday, like an ordinary person.
I've been stuck at mum's place for nearly a week.
Have not even stepped out at all yet. & down with a fever =.= .
& Great, I'm sneezing right now. Zzz.
Hmm, have nothing much to say. Just a word, confused.
Off to bed, nights <3




I feel that I want something that I'll never get.

Okays I'm like catching a fever now.
Had a really bad cold in the afternoon.
So I'm gonna go off to bed after this.
Did nothing much today, just watching dramas, tv & Maple.
No messages from JJ or Aiai though.
Don't wanna bother them too much as they have important people to contact.
I'm reasonable okays! :D . Gahhhs getting too much of myself =x .
Okay here's another survey I saw on FS from a friend.




Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
- Boy


What are you doing tomorrow?
- Everyday stuff


Who's the craziest on your top friends?
- Jo ! =x


What are you listening to?
- Nothing


Next vacation you're going to?
- Nope


Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
- Sometimes


When did you last cry?
- Last night


Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow?
- Home

Are you ticklish?
- Eh, abit


Do you and your boyfriend or girlfriend fight a lot?
- Been single for a very long time ._.


Do you like coffee?
- Depends


What was the last thing you got grounded for?
- Having a boyfriend at age 12 LOLS =x


How many kids do you plan on having?
- I'll decide if I ever get married


Plans for tonight?
- Sleep, sleep & more sleep


Who pissed you off today?
- Myself.


Who saw you cry last?
- No one


Do you think you will be in a relationship 8 months from now?
- I've been single for 8months o.o


What is your first name if you spell it without the letters "e" "y" and "t"?
- Cass ._.


Are you wearing make up?
- Nope


Have you had your birthday yet this year?
- Yups.


Where was the last place you went?
- Hair salon


What color are the walls of the room?
- Mine's light blue


Are you scared of spiders?
- Yes


Do you like roller coasters?
- Scared but yes


If someone likes you, would you want them to tell you?
- Depends on who


How late did you stay up last night?
- 6AM this morning


Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
- Yea, but it doesn't matter anymore. I don't take lies.


Did you ever lose a friend?
- Not yet


Is your birthday coming?
- Next year 18April 2009


What happened at 9:30 am today?
- Sleeping :D


Who was the last person to call you?
- Jeff


Last text from?
- MK


What are your plans for this week?
- Hmm, none.


Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
- Nope


How many letters are in your last name?
- 3


How many text messages have you received today?
- 13


Who were you with last night?
- Family


What/who woke you up today?
- Mum blasted music x.x


Do you like someone right now?
- I love. Even so, does it even matter ? =/





My secret, is that I'm keeping this secret from you.

3:50am in the Morning


Aiai & JJ go in lers. I can't help to say but I miss them.
Especially Aiai. Woke up today & went online.
& Of cause, Aiai wasn't on. It feels so different w/o him.
I'm not used to it cause usually I would see him on alr.
& He'll be saying, "Dear <3333" . But I never got anything today.
JX tried to comfort me and said he'll replace him.
Treat him as Aiai, I was like "Hell no" .
"You & I both know that you're not him"
Lols, but thanks anyway, for wanting to even pei me. (: .
I kept going AFK today, wasn't in the mood to play.
Kept watching DVDs, slack in Maple.
Night time I msged JJ asking how is he.
He said everything's okay except for the haircut & icy cold water. LOLS.
Then I msged Aiai to ask him too. He replied! :D
He said he got transfered because of his tattoo.
But he said it wasn't that bad too. He didn't reply after that.
But it was already 10plus, so guess it was lights out.
Heard they'll be out by next Friday. Yayness <3 .
Then went back slack at Maple & it was Maomao's bday!
So I used my cash I was saving for 2x to mega him.
MAO MUST BE HONOURED OKAYS! :D .
Then talk alot rubbish with friends in Maple.
It was like 2am plus when Jeff ask me conference. Oh well, okay then.
They were talking most of the time though. So I was kinda left out.
So I just kup first, didn't have mood to talk x.x
Surfed the net till now, & I'm blogging.
Just have to get something outta my mind. Hopefully, I'll feel better.
Alrights off to bed for me, Nights (:





HAPPY BDAY TO MAOMAO :D

3am in the Morning


Found this survey from a friend's blog.
Doing it here :D


35 Little Secrets:


[ONE] Who was your last text from?
Junjie


[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?
McD'


[THREE] Your relationship status?
Single


[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Not yet


[FIVE] What is your current mood?
Sad


[SIX] What's your brother's name?
Zen


[SEVEN ] What's your favorite color?
Red


[EIGHT] Where do you wish you were right now?
With him


[NINE] Have you ever been in trouble with the cops?
Nope


[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
Yups


[ELEVEN] Something you do alot?
Maple


[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
Nope


[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
He's attached


[FOURTEEN] When did you cry last night?
Last night ._.


[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yea


[SIXTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
*Is it really alright?*


[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Dad


[EIGHTEEN] What is your favorite song?
The Call


[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?
Answering you


[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?
Me


[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Mum gave it to me


[TWENTY-TWO] Who did you hold hands with last?
His ain't mine to hold


[TWENTY-THREE] What is your lucky number?
I have a lucky number ?


[TWENTY- FOUR] Who are your closest friends as of today?
Mine go way back 8years ago


[TWENTY- FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
Normal


[TWENTY- SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Nope


[TWENTY-SEVEN] Who are you thinking of right now?
Him, I guess


[TWENTY-EIGHT] What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping x.x


[TWENTY-NINE] What did you do yesterday?
Maple & DVDs


[THIRTY ] What are you listening to right now?
The Call - Regina Spektor


[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person you hugged?
Sis


[THIRTY- TWO] Who do you hate at this moment?
Myself, I think


[THIRTY- THREE] Do you act differently around the person you like?
At times


[THIRTY- FOUR] What is your natural hair color?
Black/really dark brown


[THIRTY- FIVE] Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Sis, Friends & Him

This song is for you.
I'll miss you. ):


It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word


And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry


I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye


Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before


All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war


Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light


You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye


You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye


Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget


Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes


You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye


You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

MidNight


OKAY! I haven't been updating for a freaking long time.
I'm too lazy & can say busy lahs. =x .
Anw, so many things happened.
Got to met my Maple Aiai.
Got married to Aiai.
Celebrated Kiat's bday with a total of 11people including me.
Swensons at 6am :D
Maple lvl142 now.
Necked & egged :D.
Exams fail, sleepless nights.
So many stupid things, & time seems to passed so fast.


Oh, got my hair dyed red today :D .
Jo got her highlights.
Ohyea, I'm so gonna be emo! T.T
Sunday having last exam, but sure fail ):
Then Tuesday, Aiai going in NS ler. T.T
Jo flying that day too! No one pei me ):
I'm going to miss Aiai soooooooo much lahs.
Sigh, he say come out want me 15x. I'll try my very best :D
He go in near one month sia. Sians. I can go bang wall alr.


Alrights I'll go sleep now, nights all (: